Way back in December, during one of those times I was feeling out of sorts, I reached out to my former roommate. I honestly don't remember any specific nighttime conversations with her but I do know that I can always go to her if I needed someone to talk to (and that holds true for my other siblings and other 'sisters' in my life).
We were able to chat on the phone and that really helped a lot. In addition to that, she typed out a reply to my "dissertation" of my situation.
She wrote:
Space within myself. Space between what is now and what worries me. Space which is filled with God's presence. I am coming to terms with the idea of Emotions. Emotions are our perception of reality. The reality may not be real but it is very real to us and that is why we feel tension, fear, pressure. It is real to us. Emotions are the trigger that tells me what I believe how things are. When I recognize that this is what I perceive reality to be, I can ask our Lord - is it real. Are my fears real? Is this important? Why is it important to me? And then little by little I realize who I am and what it is I really want and what it is that is so important to me.
Now when there is an issue that really worries me but it has to be very specific - I put it in a prayer oven. I say to God - Lord I am going to park this lorry in your garage because there is no room in mine to take care of it. And you know what - it works. The matter gets resolved somehow.
Words of wisdom.
Thank God for older sisters.
One day, I hope that she and my other siblings will co-author this blog and share their thoughts and words of wisdom. They have much to teach and I have much to learn.
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